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07 April 2008 @ 02:47 am
there was never a reason to become like this
it sort of just happened.
i don't like the way my life has changed without you.
i don't know which path to choose.
i'm lost. i was abandoned.
to live forever on my own without you.
things will never be together inside.
nowhere to go and no one to make me feel whole again.
there's no one in my life that i actually give enough credit to.
this one's for you.
Current Mood: touchedtouched
LaU $$
07 April 2008 @ 02:32 am
There are so many things in this world that we take for granted. This is probably one of the most hypocritical things I've ever written. Even at this very moment there is a (probably homeless) man on the train asking for money. I'm ever so cooly staring at this piece of paper. Ignoring him seems to be the only thing necessary right now. I want to laugh at how he's dressed. I should throw him a five just for what he's wearing. Have we as a human race become so sinfully incoherant that we so freely forget about the most important things in life? We've succome to committing every single deadly sin every single day! (if even that long) Where do we possibly go from here?
Current Mood: curiouscurious
LaU $$
07 April 2008 @ 02:19 am
my eyes were shut inside my head.
you were once the single thought that entered in.
the light of my night in the early evening.
absolute grief before the death.
did you know you can mourn someone that's not even dead?
changing  the view of a once sure thing.
no remorse, no guilt, no conscience.
(no feelings of an actual human being)
it's too easy to be fooled by you.
among my senses at every waking moment.
Current Mood: mellowmellow
LaU $$
07 April 2008 @ 02:06 am
a courteous smile and a snarling grin.
dark hair with eyes to match.
waiting patiently while pacing nervously.
my heart agrees, but my head prolongs it.
the best feeling i've ever had comes along with the worst pain i've ever been faced with.
the forbiddings are too much to ignore now.
not only did you have my heart, you had become it.
i'm not able to tell if it's love or if it's nausea.
our hands don't fit so perfectly together anymore.
a never-ending staircase that leads to nowhere.
can you get to nowhere fast? or is it always an inevitable journey?
you travel to the place that you find comfort only to find that the feeling of comfort has become extinct.
what do i do now?
wait it out and risk the recurrence?
or let it go, never to feel it again?
Current Location: still on the couch...
Current Mood: exanimateexanimate
LaU $$
07 April 2008 @ 02:05 am

to build a foundation upon desire is like becoming airbourne without wings.

the want and the need become solely confused and throw you so far off track, its like you were never in the race to begin with.

no light to guide you, no force of anything by your side.

Current Mood: groggygroggy
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One step on my quest for fame and recognition was to search the cyberworld for remnants of my life.
I willingly entered my name into google and managed to dismiss the forbiddings.
Knowing this town, who's to say what type of mystical mischief I'd discover?

The usual "myspace" results filtered through and an abundance of single "laurens" or "branskys" as well.
I was starting to lose hope in my infamy when suddenly something stuck out to me.
I somehow stumbled upon one of these sites to express oneself verbally and what I read made my day.

(maybe even my week. we'll have to check back in a few days, though.)

Have I been living on another planet? 
Let me just say that I've never been more confused in my human existence.
Apparently I'm not able to see the affect of my own actions.
I'm not a genuine conversationalist and I'm not good enough to maintain a real friendship with.

I'm sorry folks. 
You guys were wrong this whole time!
You should just stop reading already..

I'm serious...


...or proceed with caution, I guess.

You're still here? Wow.
I guess I was right in the first place.
Go figure!

Well, thanks for tagging along then :)
Current Location: my couch
Current Mood: blahblah
Current Music: tv
LaU $$
05 March 2008 @ 03:53 am

i have returned to livejournal after 3 long hard years of testing the cool waters of the cyberworld. 

upon my return i expect great things to happen.
things like cyber-friendships and comments on my posts.

the things i do for attention.
i CAN live without it, you know

gimme that corpse please!

Current Mood: creative
Current Music: mars volta - goliath
LaU $$
28 July 2005 @ 12:18 am
its sure been a long timee..
well ive had my share of new things and heartache and now its tine to share htem with the public..
i still dont have a boyfriend even though i had quite the number of contenders
i went to xaviers prom which was awesome
i went to my prom which sucked
i graduated from new useless
im going off to college in 29 days
im not a virgin anymore :X
i love my friends
everyones in greece
i dont want to go to college
i want to go to college
i still hate guys
i hate typing
im leaving now...

i hate this shit..
peace out g
Current Mood: hothot
Current Music: diamonds are forever by my BOY kanye
LaU $$
11 April 2005 @ 11:19 am
well im updating..

life blows..i hate everyone..you know, the usual..

ok well guys are terrible and i still dont have a bf but i dont think i want one anymore..im gunna stop liking guys so fast..and im gunna join a gym..and im gunna lose 15 pounds..

thank you all..

lau lau
Current Mood: complacenti dunno what complacent means
Current Music: picture-kid rock and sheyrl crow
LaU $$
26 February 2005 @ 02:21 am
i hate everything..i had a panic attack today

apparently i cant handle my life anymore..i wish i didnt exsist so none of this stupid shit would happen..like suckss..bring on the good? life..
Current Mood: angryi hate life
Current Music: veggie